Crappy body image is NO excuse for me not to eat this morning. Smiling with my sausage and egg flatbread sammich because it’s the first cool day in Louisiana (cool meaning 72* lol).
I’ve gotta keep on keepin on
I AM FEARFULLY AND WONDERFULLY MADE! ~psalm 139
Oh goodness I’m in the bathtub and I sent something to the printer from here and that’s super cool and it’s done printing but I’m not done becoming a prune sooo..
First volleyball game!!
sherlocked-on-avenging-nerd bet you never thought you’d see the day I play a sport with balls flying at my face :’D
Grabbed me a PUMPKIN SPICE LATTE between classes! This is a HUGE fear/trigger food because of the pumpkin part. (I plan to write a post later today/tomorrow about the PTSD correlation with that) but enjoying me the “unnecessary” calories (aka yumminess)!! :D
Caitlyn: 2 Anorexia: 0
Licking the spoon of the most heavenly Mississippi Mud cake in the Deep South. And a big F-U to anorexia for telling me I shouldn’t.
I’m running this show now.
Caitlyn: 1 Anorexia: 0
Dipping into my self-care supplies for a nice $1 facial pack from Forever 21 because urges and I deserve nice things, dammit.
Treating yourself is one of the hardest and most crucial things in recovery. Your mind tells you that you don’t deserve the love, attention, etc, but those are the very things that help release you from that mentality. (Plus facials make me feel like a wicked space alien ;))
Keep on keepin on!
I’ve been taking karate here for like TWO FUCKING YEARS and NOW we decide to make a small ordeal over Caitlyn’s scars?? Wtf.
I mean, I appreciate the concern but it’s been YEARS like why now?
Snacking it up at flipping midnight because my intake was horrible today and my body needs food, even if I’m not hungry for it.
My nutritionist is worried. My therapist is worried. My mom is worried.
She notices I’ve lost weight.
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